Self Written Songs 11-12-2010

 

Life of the Party

 

no party is that boring

no face uninteresting

no music uninspiring

to my understanding

 

for I am the life of the party

I've assigned myself to be

nobody else is responsible

for my happiness but me

 

when I enter a room

I hear in my ears a boom

for as I enter a room

I make disappear all gloom

 

everybody's got a story to tell

all you've got to do is yell

above the raucous of hell

I'm sure you will be heard

 

for I am the life of the party

I've assigned myself to be

nobody else is responsible

for my happiness but me

 

I've stopped pretending

that I'm that interesting

to those people whom

I would love to impress

 

I just open myself up

to be impressed

listening, not just hearing

with empathic understanding

 

for I am the life of the party

I've assigned myself to be

nobody else is responsible

for my happiness but me

 

 

 

 

One night at the bar

 

first time I set my eyes on you

I knew

I'm captured, I'm struck

there is no turning back

 

the self-control I've rehearsed

for as long as I can remember

flew off the window

the moment we hit eye-ball to eye-ball

 

so much for preparation

so much for poise

I stumbled, I mumbled

I crumbled, or so I was told

 

I'm helpless, clueless, restless

you're just looking cool like

my world ain't spinning at all

but I'm free-falling

I'm free-falling

free-falling

falling

 

and yet I don't even exist

just another silhouette

in the darkened bar

of sadness

 

I scrape my throat

from the dryness of my soul

I need to fill it up again

with some cola and rum

 

as I watch you leave

with this witch in shimmering red

the darkness with liquid blend

as a hot tear drown my head

 

I'm helpless, clueless, restless

you're just looking cool like

my world ain't spinning at all

but I'm free-falling

I'm free-falling

free-falling

falling

 

 

 

 

Make-over

 

when was the last time

you saw yourself

really looked at yourself

in the mirror

 

do you still know who that is

looking back at you

or is it a stranger

you've met somewhere in the past

but can't remember

 

who caused those wrinkles

to deepen

what happened to the

color of your hair

 

there's an extra layer

on your middle

and your kneecaps

now seem to dangle

 

take control

ain't too late

to take control

 

the beauty of life

is the make-overs of it all

you can take control

and start with yourself

 

the next lap of your life

after that mid-life crap they talk about

is in your hands to mold

take it, it's yours to hold, behold

 

do a make-over

it just isn't over

for if you feel good about yourself

the world will again bother

 

take control

ain't too late

to take control

 

the beauty of life

is the make-overs

of it all

you can take control

and start with yourself

 

 

 

Salsa

 

forward and backward I go

turning as you twirl me oh

pulling me in

pushing me out

following your beat

the tempo thrills me so

 

turning, turning

I'm so breathless

but I keep going

for if I stop

you'll leave me here

to find another partner

to dance with you

 

I don't hear the music anymore

I just hear the tap tapping of my shoes on the floor

matching the bongo drums rapping in my heart

when you lift me there up high I feel my eyes smart

 

my wide skirt twirl around you

your strong hand wrap around my back

your leg brushing against my hip

I try to hold on to the dregs of sanity

left untouched by the countless

mojitos I've consumed

 

this ain't real anymore

because you look at me as if

I were the most beautiful creature on the floor

or am I dreaming it all?

 

don't look at me as if you love me

don't play tricks with my heart

for I won't survive tomorrow

if it turns out it isn't so

 

just dance with me with passion

but don't play with my emotion

let's just be physical on the floor

you play pimp I play whore

 

forward and backward I go

turning as you twirl me oh

pulling me in

pushing me out

following your beat

the tempo thrills me so

 

turning, turning

I'm so breathless

but I keep going

for if I stop

you'll leave me here

to find another partner

to dance with you